woo hoo! i got the job i start on tuesday and it's super awsome. i work 9-2, which means i can still pick up my lil bro. it's seems like a really cool place to work and they people are really nice, and not the fake nice either.  my boyfriend started working too, did i mention that he too was unemployed? he was not working for about three weeks, and he went on this interview and got the job, right now we're are so stress free!

have you peeps noticed my new layout? i dig it, do you? omg! i don't know if i mentioned that i love cereal? but i do! it's like my crack, so i went to the market last night with my boyfriend and i saw CHOCOLATE lucky charms. they are soooooooooooo freaking good! ::::drools:::: YUMMY!

this weekend i dyed my hair and i think i killed it more that it already was damaged. when it's wet it gets very "gummy" like it breaks appart very easily :( oh well the deed has been done, i guess i just have to let it air dry and then style my hair.

i'm looking for a job, i'm not sure if i mentioned that yet. i have been on interviews like you wouldn't believe, but either i turn the job down, or they don't call me back. i know it sounds stupid to "turn down" a job, when i'm the one looking. here's my spin on it... i have worked many dead end jobs, that i took just to have a job. while working there i was miserable and feeling as thought i was getting sucked into a huge hole of shit. so now i’m wiser and i feel that i have enough experience and that i'm smart enough to be working at a job i'll enjoy. we spend so much time at our jobs, why not at least enjoy it right?

i was reading the news, online, and i came across this article which i though you guys might enjoy....

my eyes feel heavy with sleep, but when i lay down i'm wide awake. i hate that feeling, and yet it's so very familiar to me. since i stopped working i have become nocturnal. well, more like restless...i sleep very late and wake up rather early. i'm slowly burning out and i don't know what to do....

i would like to start this journal, mainly to get crap off of my chest. i bottle up many many emotions, thoughts and feelings, i figure that this is a safer way to jot them down instead of a notebook or diary.

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i am 21 years old and i live with my mom, step dad and half brother and sister. i have a boyfriend of four years and i am not working at the moment. i have very close friends because i don't really trust people. even some of the friends i had in the past turned out to be back stabbers, so that says a lot about my judgment. however i think that everyone has been in that situation, it makes you stronger to be treated like shit and talked about.

my boyfriend means well but annoys me 76% of the time. he knows nothing about being independent and needs to be taken care of. i on the other hand and VERY independent and get too easily irritated with needy people. slowly i am learning to be patient and understanding with him so we won't argue as much as we used to.

i have a friend that i cannot seem to get rid of, she is much like gum. i have known her for many years now and she is all drama at all times. i used to think that maybe these things really do happen and she just has bad luck, but as the years went on i just noticed that it is all for attention. it's always something new and something dreadful, world ending even! all in all it's just a ball of lies, a whirl wind of lies and if i don't distance myself from it i will get taken away into a world of no happiness, drama and tears.

my other friend only talks to me when she gets bored or needs to kill time between work and having to pick up her mother. she comes to me for homework help, internet usage and company. i don't mind most of the time because i'm usually bored too, but i love being alone more that i like being used. also, she never pays for anything when she's out with me, and she never drives, but she suggests where to go and what to do.

my other friend is a total trip, i love her. she is stupid, dingy and so much fun. together we are those annoying chicks that are way too loud, have way too much fun and smoke too much ciggies. don't worry because when i see those girls i roll my eyes too, so i guess it's an even-steven thing. only thing about this chick is that there is a time to be silly and foolish and a time to be serious, she does not know of the second one. she is never serious and it tends to get embarrassing at times.

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my family is very important to me, and should be to everyone. honestly the only reason i say that is because they are so good to me. if they were assholes, i would totally diss them and say i didn't give a shit. the are really good to me and show me they love me in many different ways. like i said i live with my mom, step dad 1/2 sis and bro. i visit my dad when i can, it's quite a drive from here to there, so  we meet up at least twice a month, but we talk on the phone oodles!